Soul Cleansing..

This is very difficult for me to put out there, but it is a necessary part for me to begin healing. It may be right or it may be wrong, but I have to do this even if it's just for myself to get this out of me.

There comes a time in life when all the situations and occurences that have happened to you through the years cause you to have to take a break and really look at yourself. I'm realizing that I have never given myself the attention I deserve. I am not talking about the usual attention we give ourselves like, doing our hair, or buying a gift for ourselves.
What I'm talking about is more of a deeper focus where I am looking at myself in all regards. So many things have occurred in my life and so fast, that I never had a chance to even blink at them. They were like..in and out..zip zoom..and I couldn't/didn't even see what happened to me. Here I am months to years after they've happened and just now feeling the after affects of it all.
Sometimes I get so dark and low, and it feels as if no one really sees the real me..honestly it's like I've never even really seen myself. Until now, I am just now beginning to pay attention to who I am..not Mystikjipsy, but me..Cher Jackson.
I need to and have needed to do this for a very long time..and part of me wants to cringe away from it for fear of being to deep and emotional or being ridiculed for being open and vulnerable.
There is this voice that says "Oh, Cher what is your problem, you're a grown woman, you should be past these things.."
The problem with that is the litte girl part of myself has never been nurtured and loved the way she was supposed to be, so how can the grown woman part of myself even begin to take care of the child when she herself has not learned?
This is what brings me to my current deep soul searching.

There have been many aspects to this search I've been on for the past 5-7 years.

I've been pissed off at the people who have hurt me, really pissed off at God (that one was an extremely hard one for me to even begin to turn around), and even directed misplaced anger at myself to the point of causing myself harm (emotionally) indirectly.
I'm tired of being sad, mad, angry and hurt, I want to get to the end of this chapter and begin a fresh new era in my life.

I'm ready to throw away the blinders that have been acting as a numbing agent...an agent that has caused me to neglect actually looking at myself and all that has transpired in my life thus far.

With that said, I apologize to everyone, my fans and my friends if I've seemed distant or not existent lately. I am still here and there, I just need this time to regroup and get to the bottom of what has been at the back of my mind like a needle, piercing my subconscious. It's time to face the giant.

Thoughts, Gloom and Forced Belief

Although I know it is not forever, today I am just in a deep thought irritated mood. I am usually one who likes to remain positive and try to look at things from a different perspective., and I'm not saying I am not going to do that in the near future. But one needs to feel the full spectrum of emotions, from good to what is considered bad. I prefer to dwell in a full human experience and feel all of what this existence is offering me, whether I want to or not.

One of the things that has been on my mind has to do with all the debate over religion...whether it be Christian, Buddhist, Muslim etc. I've had about enough of it all. Quite frankly the whole topic of religion has gotten on my very last nerve. I just want to escape from the pressure that is put on a person to have to make a decision on which if any religion they want to choose to partake in. I'm so sick of this heavy burden of "you have to choose what you believe or else blah blah blah is going to happen to you".

It is almost to a point where a person wants to renounce ANY AND ALL religion and go live on an island somewhere far away just to be left alone! Why must this question of "what do you believe in, what god do you worship" even be an issue? Really, this whole thing has got to end. It's gotten to the point where we do not even care about a person as a human being, only that they believe and worship the way we do. It's sickening to my stomach, and most repulsive in so many ways and on so many levels.

I am not against Christianity, or Christian beliefs however it disgusts me in everyway when there is this..Christian competition if you will of "my worship is better than your worship". There is this feeling of religious snobbery to any and all people who live their life freely from a spiritual standpoint. If you do not dress a certain way as a female (I will write another blog about being female and the viewpoint of females in society), speak a certain way (and I'm not just talking about excluding curse words), "act" like you have a purity higher than the others in the world who do not believe as you do...and the list goes on...then you are looked down upon and considered unworthy to associate with.

That goes against what I was told being a true Christian is about. Christianity however is not the only religion that this viewpoint seems to invade. It seems there is an excessive amount of picking and choosing going on in religion period regarding how to treat people in respect to whether or not they believe and act like you.

If you want to get honest and look at this entire thing of religion from a complete standpoint, you would have to admit that if Jesus Christ was walking the earth at this very moment he would show love and compassion to everyone and not religious snobbery meant to degrade. That is the person I believe he was...Love in the fullest sense.

I also believe that in order to call yourself a follower of any religion, that's designed and intended to make you a better person on the earth, you must be loving and compassionate to others even when they are different from you.

Many if not most religious people seem to be religious or blindly follow a path, not because they truely believe in what they are following, but because they need a spiritual awning to hide underneath. They are afraid to break out and be spiritually who they really wish to be, and feel they are "safer" if they follow along with others who are just as afraid to take control of their spiritual lives.

♥ M.

From Evil to Innocence

                                                          From Evil to Innocence

**As I woke up this morning I lay in bed starring at the wall just blinking my eyes. Waking up into my freshly created day, I turned to a window and saw the sun peeping through the blinds. I felt very aware of myself, how I was alive here on the earth, and that it was for a reason, as if I had just been born like the new day I was experiencing. Suddenly and very quickly the thoughts and words below came to me, and I’d like to share them with you.**:

The reason infantss and young children cry alot, are so fussy, so full of energy and life is because they are newly arrived souls here on earth. Where they came from was a place of complete and utter unconditional love, freedom and acceptance in everyway. When we arrive here in our physical bodies, it is a total shock to our spiritual selves because of how restricting it is. This is an extremely scary situation to have to go through, considering where we just came from...we were able to fly or instantly go wherever we chose.

That is what older humans are here for, because we’ve gone through the unnerving transition of becoming acclimated to living in our physical bodies. We are the ones who are able to teach and mold the young ones who arrive daily into being at peace with their physical bodies until they again leave the earth and venture off into another life existence.

Some adults however, are still struggling with being in their physical bodies. That is why we have such crimes and evil doings going on around us. Those who commit these acts are really crying out from their souls or spiritual selves for help.  They never had a peaceful transition from the time right before they were born until the moment they committed the crime. In a way these adults souls are angry and still not understanding what cause them to be “trapped and constricted” in these human bodies. This is not in any way relieving a person from the consequences of horrific actions.  But, without nurturing, teaching and supporting newly arrived souls in a way that will assist them through this scary transition of at first being a spirit to being a spirit contained in a body, we are dooming them to a rocky start in their life.

This is why it is so important to be a strong backbone and support system to all young children.  They are so impressionable and it is very easy to destroy the innocence they came here with whether it is intentional or not.

♥ M.

Women only, not advisable for men haha!

*This was originally written on August 1, 2007 in my Myspace blog*

Why is it that womens business is all in the streets all the time? Or at least it seems that way..everything from feminine dryness, to showing how well a pad will hold that blue liquid stuff..whatever the hell that is. (We all know it is not blue.. but ok.)LOL I just have an issue with the fact that it seems that womens business is all up for discussion (ie commercials) all the time, but I don't really see mens stuff all over the place. Granted, you have your occasional commercial about lack of rising to the occassion, and I do mean OCCASSIONAL. Somebody correct me if I'm wrong...PLEASE correct me, because I would love to be wrong about this.

Since we're putting womens issues up for discussion though...here is another, I've never heard of any birth control for men..and I am talking about the pills..until recently. Birth control pills for women has been around for nearly 40 years! Why so long to design pills for men?

Well let's see , is it because of this?:

Since we're putting womens issues up for discussion though...here is another, I've never heard of any birth control for men..and I am talking about the pills..until recently.  Birth control pills for women has been around for nearly 40 years!  Why so long to design pills for men?

Well let's see , is it  because of this?:

Common Side Effects for Combination Contraceptives
• Weight gain
• Increase or decrease in acne
• Nausea and vomiting (particularly for the first few cycles)
• Dizziness
• Headaches
• Depression
• Vaginal infections
• High blood pressure
• Loss of libido
Less Common Serious Health Complications
• Blood clots in legs, lungs, heart or brain
• Stroke
• Liver tumors (rare)
• Heart attacks
• Gallstones (rare)
• Jaundice (rare)
• Possibly cervical cancer
Common Side Effects for Progestin Only Contraceptives
• Spotting and irregular vaginal bleeding
• Longer periods
• Amenorrhea for extend periods
• Headaches
• Anxiety and nervousness
• Pain in lower abdominals
• Dizziness
• Loss of libido
• Depression
• Increase or decrease in acne
• Skin rash or darkened patches of skin
• Appetite changes
• Weight gain
• Tender breasts
• Increase or decrease in facial and body hair
• Possibly hair loss
• Vaginal discharge
• Bone density loss
• Enlarged ovarian follicles
• Pain or itching (usually for a brief period of time)
• Norplant users: infection at the site of implantation
Less Common Serious Health Complications
• Ectopic pregnancy
• Certain cancers

It could be because of this..hmmmm don't know, what do you think?  This is just the side effects for birth control pills..let alone:

the Diaphragm

depo provera

IUDs

I'm just venting about these things.  All men have to do is put on a little rubber "sock" and they still complain about that!  It is just frustrating to know what we as women have to go through as women.  Everything from being looked at as objects for being a hot tomale, to being looked at as worthless for not being beautiful, being called a ho for celebrating our hottness, being told to not be too out spoken about what we think and at the same time being looked at for weak if we don't speak our mind, etc...  and men have one little thing to do when it comes to sex and they complain.  Flabbergasting!  I will prob be banished for all eternity for saying things like this but I don't care.  It's my blog and I'll rant and rave if I want to. LOL.

If any one cares, message me about this, I'd love to know what you think, what you think I should've added to this, or what you think is irrelevant info.  Just message me! :) I'm really curious.

"Friday night stuff" video on youtube ;)

Hey Jipsies! I posted a new chit chat video on youtube yesterday. Go check it out! ;) New fun videos coming soon! Also, if you haven't already go subscribe to my channel (search name Mystikjipsy) to catch all the new stuff coming in the near future. xo

 www.youtube.com/user/mystikjipsy

...oh, and from now on I will be signing any blog posts of mine simply "♥ M."

Startinnngggggg...now! :)
♥ M.

Jipsy Update

Jipsies!! 

Omgosh, it has been so long since I've been able to talk to you...and get into this freaking blog. Anyways..I'm in here now thank the universe. ;) 

Ok, new stuff, as you should be aware, I made an announcement on my Twitter @mystikjipsy that old and new fans are now called Jipsies. So, when you become my fan, you then become a part of my Jipsy army! Sound cool? It is...why you ask?

I'll be glad to tell you! 

Jipsies Traits are:

Jipsies do not run away from their own inner power.

Jipsies live and love music.

They are not afraid to shake up the boat.

They are who they are without apology.

Jipsies take chances where others would shrink away.

They are not afraid to have an open mind.

And most of all Jipsies are kind and respectful to themselves, other Jipsies and nature. 

More will be added to this list of Jipsy traits as time goes on! =D

Other news, I'm working on some more videos for acoustic guitar cover songs. Currently I have one draft version up on my YT @ youtube.com/user/mystikjipsy.  

Subscribe to me there, my Channel name is Mystikjipsy. Look forward to seeing you there!

I heart you my Jipsies, and will talk again soon..Happy Sunday!

♥ Jipsy

New Songs!!! =D

Hey long time no talk too! :)

I'm happy to announce, I have finally upload 5 new songs to soundcloud.com/mystikjipsy as well as my other sites...

....like these lovely's: ------->www.myspace.com/mystikjipsy

                                 www.reverbnation.com/mystikjipsy

I'm still working on more ♫'s to come soon too!

Yesss..finally! Took me long enough right? So go... and check them out and have a listen or twenty ok?

♥ Jipsy

xo