Hey everybody :),
It's been a good while since I posted anything. Mostly I post little tid bits here and there from my Facebook page at http://www.facebook.com/mystikjipsy. Please go "Like" me there! :)
So I have some thoughts this morning that came to me as I am sitting here starting my day regarding things and situations that no longer work or aren't working. We tend to want to push and push to make something, anything work and go in our favor..and sometimes pushing is a good thing. In order to get anywhere in life it's good to have an ambitious character. On the other hand though I'm really talking about pushing to make something happen that just isn't meant to happen or will never happen for you.
If you take math for example (please bare with me while I explain)..let's use 2+9=11 ...as hard as you try you can never make 2 and 9 equal 12 or 13 etc. Even if you move the numbers around and make it 3+8 or 7+4 etc. You will never make those sets of numbers equal anything other than 11, what it is supposed to be.
So in reference to certain areas (not all) in our lives, no matter how much you move things in your life around to try to suit a situation it will never equal out to the results that you are looking for. The factors that are in the situation will never change to create the end result that you are looking for. So what this means is that you and I have to choose different factors to work with to create the results we want.
Basically when we keep doing and repeating the same things and circumstances in our lives we will keep getting the same results. It makes perfect sense to me to equate that thought process to math. Math is point blank, you never get a different answer no matter how hard you try to move the numbers around in a range. It's the same exact thing in life. If we keep working with the same set of "numbers" and "factors" then we will always and forever keep getting the same answers.
<3 Jipsy xxxo
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Recently I have had something happen to me that really brought me low and almost made me want to give up on everything. Someone I had gotten extremely close to and who was extremely close to me (or at least I thought), and who I grew to love deeply suddenly had a change of heart out of the blue. Actually I loved him from when I first saw him. He had said often how much he loved me and that he was in love with me. We had been talking about getting married and how much we loved each other. How we could not wait to be together as husband and wife. But he suddenly changed his mind and broke my heart into a million pieces. This happened only a week after he had said how much he loved me and asked me for my ring size. Not only did he end our relationship abruptly but there was no friendship in the separation and he did it in a way that was very mean and cruel. We started off as such good friends (or so I thought). I was deeply hurt by his treatment of me and how easy it was for him to walk away from me, drop me and leave me in the dust. I didn't understand how he could go from being so loving and enthusiastic about me and us to completely cold.
With all that said, since then I've been working on raising my own vibration, connecting with myself and forgiving and letting go of situations and people who have hurt me. I started doing a meditation on focusing on feeling my connection with God and that higher plane. I noticed that it starts to feel like there is me, and another part of me that is looking at me and all of the things that I think about. This other part of me, or higher part of me is all forgiving and seeing. As I was meditating I thought about this man who I loved (and still do) and how he had hurt me…but then I started to think about him as a little boy and a baby. I remembered some things he had told me about his childhood that he had gone through. I remember how I felt when he told me about those things, and how I wanted to hug him and be there for him and love him.
Suddenly as I started to think of him as a tiny human being who had been hurt just as I was (though not in the same way) hurting at that moment and from there I was able to be in a forgiving state. The hurt and anger I felt from how he treated me and closed the door on us seemed to get smaller while the love in my heart for him as a human being grew larger. I felt big from that view, my heart felt big. It was a better view from there as opposed to being that first part of myself who only saw the hurtful situation.
I think if we can look at everyone through new eyes, eyes that see the whole picture and eyes that see the real person behind the “evil deeds” then we can truly move past hurts quicker and forgive and let go with ease. I did that meditation because I truly wanted/want to let go because the sadness and anger was only hurting myself.
Additionally in order to move on and get past hurts, for me I stopped visiting the past. The past is what creates the thoughts that make me sad. Once I stopped incorporating the past into my thoughts and life I noticed that I feel lighter. The past also includes reminiscing about how it was with my ex, or how he made me feel. Once I stop focusing on that and focus on now and what I want going forward that has made healing able to take place. I'm not saying that I'm completely healed from that situation. There are times that I still cry, but I feel that looking at my ex from this perspective is very helpful in me completing the cycle of moving on and finally letting go.
I’ll probably never get an answer from my ex or from any other source as to why he ended our relationship so rudely and without feeling or concern for me. Maybe I’ll never know, but maybe the whole point of this situation was for me to experience forgiveness.
Well sorry for the book everyone, and also sorry for how long it’s been since I've posted! :O
Have a great week and blessed be! <3 M.
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